صد و هشتاد و هفتمین قطره

واقعا فکر نمیکردم این حجم احساسات رو سر مرگ یه کاراکتر فیکشنال تجربه کنم ولی کردم. البته دلیلشم میدونم چرا و شاید یه موقع بیام بنویسم. ولی خب برام جالب بود که چقدر تاثیر گذاشت روم و اصلا و ابدا فکر نمیکردم اینجوری واکنش نشون بدم. یعنی قبلا سر مرگ کاراکترا ناراحت شدم بعد یه ساعت اینا یادم رفته، این دقعه از دیروز صبح تا امروز عصر اینا هردفعه یادم میفتاد اشکم درمیومد. :))) اصلا خیلی عجیب بود. البته الان که فهمیدم چرا انقدر ناراحت شدم و چرا انقدر احساس وابستگی میکردم حالم خیلی بهتره. یعنی وقتی فهمیدم دلیل احساساتم چی بوده. 

 

۳۰ شهریور ۱۴۰۲

Leave Me - Heike Langhans

Sweep away the letters lying by the door
Hide away those reoccurring tears once more
Everything is silent
Her room is void and sound
With every passing hour
Time is letting her down

Telephone fragments lay scattered on the floor
No words to make it better
She's heard it all before

Staring in the mirror
At beauty come and gone
Bewildered and broken
She fades away alone

Left her burdenеd with years of sorrow
She'll take it to the grave
And lay the sadness to rest
Don't leave her flowers
Just leave her alone
She needs to find the answers
Far away from home

Don't stand in bitter judgment
At the truth she won't untie
Don't tell her not to suffer
Don't tell her not to cry

There's no absolution
As the blood still taints her hair
The scars might be invisible
But the wounds are still there

Left her burdened with years of misery
She'll take it to the grave
And lay the heartache to rest
Don't seek forgiveness
Just leave her to mend
She needs to find the answers
She needs to find the end

Along you came searching
Slowly rooting in her soul
Regained a sense of feeling
And the gift to make her whole

But she's giving in to shadows
As she draws the final line
Follow her into darkness
And embrace her till the end of time

Left her burdened with years of agony
She'll take it to the grave
And lay her fears to rest
Don't leave her stranded
But just leave her be
In time you'll know the answers
For she is me

She is me

 

۱۱ شهریور ۱۴۰۲

صد و هشتاد و پنجمین قطره

خب خدا رو شکر متوجه پترن اعصاب خردی هام شدم و باید بیشتر حواسم به وضعیت روحیم باشه دور و ور دهم هرماه. 

 

۱۱ شهریور ۱۴۰۲